Tired and Eager

I want to write novel...
I want to sit down quietly and calm my mind down, create more and more beautiful stories...
Too bad now I'm stuck in a situation that,  I got no inspiration at all (due to stress and assignments are going to due very soon after next week)
Sigh,
4 assignments.
Hmm, wonder how am I going to do that all 4!!!
Left 1 more week to finish my work.
Then I can quickly start back my novel!!!
Please my inspiration! Come back to me after those assignments are done!!! Please... I miss you a lot!!! T.T

Rainy day today, standing alone in the train cabin.
Haha. Do I look upset? feeling blue and blur and down~ haha!

Well!!! I must fight!!! Stay strong and faster finish assignments!!! Then can concentrate writing novel, then after finishing a small part then can concentrate on final exams already!! After that is...........3 MONTHS HOLIDAY!!!!! WoohOO!!

QUICK QUICK QUICK QUICK TIME FLIES WORK DIES HOLIDAY ARRIVES!!!

ENJOYABLE

I just check out my cupboard just now.
All full of novels and of course, the rest are education books.

In 6 years time, I'm stunned with those novels which I bought!!!
OMG~ Imagine that those novels are almost same height as my study chair.

Maybe this is not as many as you thought, but seriously I feel awesome and shocked that I got these many novels!!!

Well and today I went Sunway Kim Gary celebrated Megumi's birthday as well!!! Glad that she was happy with our suprise which planned by HUI HWA & ME (As well as Nicole and Yin Min) ^^

Jiang Jiang~!! This is the mini Mocha cake for Megumi today!

Haha, This is Megumi-chan & Me!!! (known as Miyako ok?^^)

Erm, yesterday I went to the new mamak restaurant called SHANMUGA ! The nasi lemak there is RM2, and quite big pack, give a whole hard boiled egg, yeah and it is spicy and nice! Erm that place they also got this dessert stall !! Yeah got no nasi lemak picture but got the dessert picture Carol sis and I ordered! Its just RM4.90 (If i didn't remember it wrongly).

This is the HONEYDEW flavour , but including topping is like RM4.90 or RM5 I think. For me it is quite worth it and the ice is very soft just like 100yen's snowy ice! BUT BUT, if you prefer medium sweet dessert and you think that eating too much of dessert would make you fat, then I suggest you to try this!!! ^^ Yeah obviously I'm promoting! Haha.

辛いガ母ちゃんノパン!!!

私わきょ母さんのぱんも食べました。
( I have already eaten the bun made by my Mom ).
其のぱんが少し辛いです、でもとても美味しいですお !
( This bun is a bit spicy, but it is really tasty! )
幸せね~私わ。
( Im full of happiness now~! )
気持もよかったです !
( My mood is as well getting better ! )
 Now im going to show the photo of the BUN'S KINGDOM !!!

BUN KINGDOM !!! パンノ国 !!! EEHEE~

erm, let me introduce. The name of the bun is SPICY MOTHER'S BUN !!! (辛いガカアチャンノパン) Of course I make it up by myself. haha. It consist of spicy chicken floss in it but the bread is very soft and smells fresh and good !!

Gyaha~

Jiang Jiang~!!! This is the inner of the SPICY MOTHER'S BUN !!! spicy chicken floss desu !!!

Hee~

Waa~ 幸せね母ちゃんノパン!!! Hee~~~ 美味しいヨ~ !!!!

娘ワタベテイタダキマス!!!

(live in happiness, very tasty !!! now the daughter is going to eat~! itadakimasu !!! )

辛いガ母ちゃんノパンワ大一番美味しいデスヨ~~!

一年の時間

一年的时间竟然是一眨眼如此短暂，但又貌似经历过风雨般漫长。

我这个的部落格竟然已经使用一年了。到底有什么已经改变了吗？还是我们都忘了，什么东西已经改变？

I got so much to feel, but nowhere to say.

大概是习惯独自思考了，连觉得诉说自己心中的想法其实是件无谓的事。

人生里，行人真的停停走走啊……

我却已经变得有些麻木了。是我太早感到麻木了吗？

现在平淡的生活其实没什么不好，我亦不要求自己的生活要有多奇迹。

只要可以让自己避免以往的黑暗，再平淡也无所谓。

虽然我知道这个世界同时存在着黑暗。

啊，不想说了。我的内心话总是那么地沉重，我的想法只会一天比一天变得沉重。

太沉重的事，要把它诉说出来对我来说也是件很沉重的困难。

所以，自然而然就不想说了。

一年的时间，一年的时间。

也好。该走的就走了。

已经走了。

在这，一年的时间。

白い

白色，我永远都不会脱离这个颜色。

该怎么形容白色？它不是透明色，也不是无色，就是白白的，给人一种即纯洁却又有些朦胧的感觉。

我说过，我喜欢朦胧的东西，却不喜欢朦胧的感觉。

那为什么我会喜欢像白色这般朦胧的颜色呢？

我，也不知道……

或许我想要为自己创造一个纯洁干净的世界，不想再看见以往每当一闭上双目，脑海自然就会浮现那些污秽的抽象景。

那些，是我一直以来努力将其遗忘的，不该存留在我的美好记忆里的污秽。

害怕，想起要是闭上双眼时仍会看见一团团一片片浓重的黑色涂鸦，仿佛就在我的心房留下一个永远都无法抹去的污迹。

因此，我才那么向往白色。

每一天每一天，生活看似毫无变化，但实际上它却正在慢慢改变。

例如，今天三点的火车里有什么人物和我在那些时刻一起拥挤在包厢；有什么人不小心被风吹走了纸张却幸运地被我截住而拾起；有什么状况是考验我的耐心的；有什么画面或故事是惊动我的心脏，在我的心田掀起小小的的波浪；有什么歌曲我一直以为会一直一直听下去，却在下一分钟永远改变了主意，喜欢上了不同的曲风……

不知道为什么我觉得今天的自己，似乎在某种机缘巧合之下碰上了许多新事物。

1. 早晨为了选上学穿的衣而差点迟到了。
2. 七点十分抵达校园的时候我在摊子前坐着打瞌睡。
3. 放学时跟一个女同学(不甚熟的同班同学)很自在地吃了午餐还聊了天。
4. 吃饱后在小小的走廊上等校巴等了一个半小时。
5. 抵达火车站又遭遇火车的行程被延迟，等了一个小时。
6. 坐在月台等火车的时候也是一个人，又开始打瞌睡起来，头一直向下垂又向左右摇摆。 >_<
7. 上了超级拥挤的火车，在某一站遇见了俩位日本先生上车，甚至差点和他们聊起天来。
8. 傍晚因为小事而和母上计较，现在……后悔自己跟她大声说话了，却没有道歉。
9. 犹豫到底，该不该祝他生日快乐。

今天的心情可说是平淡无奇但也有小小的上和退潮的时候。

或许我就是选择用和白色一样的颜色去看待事情吧，朦胧朦胧的，仿佛触手可及却又像是虚假的影象。

白色，对我而言就是这样的存在。

该不该？

你的生日就快到了。

我提前一个月做好的生日卡片，到底要寄出去吗？

我开始有点迷惑了。

如果我将它寄给你的话，就代表了我把自己那份真诚的心意寄给远方的你。

那份我决定放下的心意……真的该寄给你吗？

那天晚上原本打算不寄给你了。

但是随着日子的来临，我开始犹豫。

到底该不该寄？

应该给你这一个最后的信，最后的祝福呢，

还是默默地收藏起这份不为人知的心意？

真的很犹豫。

但是，我仍然祝福你。真心诚恳地祝福你。