what has gotten me so far

I just check my UniSA email earlier, and I have read through the feedback form for my assignment 1 on BMPP (Business and Marketing Planning Principles) , which is one of the most important marketing subject that mean a lot to me.

Without passing it, I could not graduate as I wish by end of this year.

I could not be able to find a whole new world for myself.

Things ended up as I have expected before.

From the moment I start studying this course, I know I have to go on no matter what difficulties are confronting me.

I use to get upset when I always look back at the feedback form on my hardwork, because I have tried so much harder even though I have no clue at all on how to do it.

I just don't understand, what has supported me to stand still until today.

My dream is something irrelevant to what I am doing now in my academic field, however there is no way I could escape from it.

I have to continue with such studies until I have actually graduated.

I don't know what is there waiting for me in the future after I have finished my studies,

however I believe that I will make it through my own way, be more independent and more capable to fulfil my dream.

I wish I could do so, I wish I could achieve.

As time goes by, what has eroded from all these while?

Maybe is the pessimistic thought that I used to have on my mind.

I am unsure of how well I have done so far, but I knew that I have put in all effort to be able to get through these stages.

Stages which full of hardship and pressure.

It has not left me behind until today, I can see the shadow, I can feel it deep inside from my heart.

Or else, I would not be so upset when I actually realise that my effort is kinda wasted.

No matter what, I will move on continuously, work hard to achieve what I wanted to since the day I have set my goal.

One thing that I can assure is that, I learned to be strong in facing unexpected results in my studies. 

I also learned to move on even though things do not happen as I wish for good.

I learned to have confidence in myself much more than before.

I believe, I will reach that edge which is shining so brightly one day as I keep on walking towards it.

I know, there is something waiting for me once I have put in effort in going through all the obstacles along the way.

But, I really hope to have a peaceful mind and a really strong base to stand on to think, until I am readily prepared to go onto the next stage.

Work Hard, and you will find where you are supposed to be.

四湾岛旅游

最近，很忙，

最近，很痛，

最近，很伤，

最近，很压力。

上个星期五和家人去柔佛四湾岛度假，住的是木屋。

虽然没高级酒店那么豪华，不过里面一点都不简陋而且焕然一新又干净，我们住得也算舒服。

前阵子总是跟自己的男朋友吵架，大事也吵，小事也吵。

总是闹得几乎无可收拾。

难道是大家爱得累了？爱得不知所措了？

因为太珍爱对方而导致自己感受如窒息般一样的逼迫感，最后大家伤痕累累。

我们，太不懂得想开了。

尤其是我。

总以为自己那么努力是可以做到的，结果原来都还没达到。

可是还是会努力的。

想要朝我们的未来走下去。

话说回来，我这次去旅行真的没白去，也认为很庆幸自己有去。

因为我终于见识到了蓝蓝的大海是什么样子！！！

虽然在梦想中没有特别迷恋海洋，更没有特别期待着想要去，可能是因为发现自己的自由是有限的吧，但是这一次还是去了。

还是看到了海的样子，还是学着电视剧里的男女主角，走在沙滩上，踏着海水的样子，一步一脚印慢慢感受泥沙的软绵，还有海水的舒适。

其实我并没有特别的感受，但还是压抑不住内心的激昂，毕竟这是我长这么大以来那么真实地感受着海。

说真的，我坐在海堤上吹着海风的时候，脑袋只有一片空白，真的根本就不会去连想到许多不开心的东西。

不过我还是会想起那么些在我身边很重要的人，我很想要跟他们分享这一种喜悦，例如自己的好朋友和深爱着的人。

美好的时光，美好的一天，我想跟他们一起度过，这样我的生活里才不会留下遗憾。

因为我很高兴自己有他们的陪伴，和感到很高兴自己可以陪伴着他们见证快乐的时刻。

这样的感觉，真的很棒，很舒服。

我们星期五下午出发，在阿姨家住了一夜，第天吃了早餐才上路去到我们的目的地。

星期六晚上，我们有烧烤会，我看得见阿姨为这场旅游花了不少心血，因为她真的准备了很多食物还有零食，所以在那里的时候大家真的没有机会饿坏肚子。

那天晚上我跟弟弟因为小事情吵架又闹不愉快，真的搞得我的泪水欲夺眶而出。恰好被我爸看见，他就说小事情没什么大不了，我早就料到他会这么说来安抚我们，不过那个时候的我确实吞不下那口气。

为了不再跟弟弟继续闹得更严重，我目中无人地离开房间走到老远，一个人静静走去海边。

不得不承认，夜晚的海真的挺恐怖的。

那时我一直忍着心中的愤怒及委屈，看着大海努力平复自己的情绪，但是当我看见有一个圆形的东西飘浮在海面上时，我因为好奇而不停地盯着它看研究着它，结果越看越久反而觉得很恐怖了，我开始发挥自己无限的想象力去想象这个东西的真面目，想到死尸、怪物，我就毛骨悚然，立即扭头往聚会的地方走去。

很恐怖啊~ ~ ~ >_< !!!


那天晚上还跟男朋友吵架，=_=

我们真的是没得救了，几乎每一天都吵。哎。

不管那个啦。

星期天我们早上八点就被阿姨吵醒了，她简直就是拍打着我们的房门一边喊，能不醒都难。

起身以后我看到她在做早餐，是沙丁鱼面包，然后她就拜托我去morning call其他人，所以也学着她一间一间去叫，"起身咯！不起身没有早餐吃咯！"

哈哈!!!

讲完过后我还故意拍多几下怕他们睡不醒，所以拍得很大力过后就快点溜走了。XD

哈哈哈!!!

很得意!!!

哎，可是啊那天早上我的姨丈要我帮他泡咖啡，刚好没有热水了，我就从热水壶里倒出来，一不小心就烫伤了自己的手指，痛到不行了！我还差一点松手把热水壶丢到地上，如果真的砸在地上的话，我相信我的脚不只是会黑青，而且还会被烫伤。

幸好我够机灵想到这一点，脑筋急转弯似的，忍着痛把水壶放好在桌子上才冲进厕所开水龙头洗个过瘾。

后来中午吃了午餐就去JOHOR PREMIUM OUTLET,那里卖的都是超级名牌产品!!!很可惜我跟妈咪没得进去BURBERRY专卖店看BAG!!! T.T

没想到妈咪也会说BURBERRY的包包设计得很美，产品的她都看不上眼呢。哈哈。

哎，以后做工了有钱就可以买一个给妈咪，买一个给自己了。嘻嘻。

真的很想要哪。

那时候去旅游，还带功课一起去做，真的很扫兴，不过所幸的我在星期六下午就做完了，要不然都不能好好享受虚度光阴感觉。哈哈!!

现在回来了，忙碌的生活又找回我了，哎。真的是很烦闷咧。

显。

不过，还是很开心看到海。

嘻嘻。

算是一个大收获吧！