Not Missing

My concern for you, it is not missing. 

My memories of you, it is not missing. 

My warmth from you, it is not missing. 

My willingness for you, it is not missing. 

My support for you, it is not missing. 

My kindness for you, it is not missing. 

My awaits for you, it is not missing. 

My embrace for you, it is not missing. 

My love for you, it is always here, not missing at all. 

The ultimate reason of loving you, caring about you, is not to gain any return in favour, at least not to the extent that, the desperateness would kill your happiness. 

I just wished to see your smile,

I just wished to see you being happy,

I just wished to be one of your support whenever you need,

I just wished to make you feel the beauty of being loved and concerned,

I just wished to see you safe and sound, and never ever want you to feel lonely.

If you ever knew about my feelings for you, are all of these.

I am truly glad that I have learned from my past that, LOVING someone ain't about asking a favour in return, but...

is about giving and sharing; understanding and accepting; accompanying and forgiving.

I understand that, everyone has scars, everyone has pain...

Maybe, I am still not mentally ready yet to pop into a relationship that two person should put in effort to grow and maintain.

Everyone, is afraid of losing trust, afraid of being hurt...

But, my feelings for you aren't fake, they are true... and sincere...

I wouldn't think so much and so far to that extent, is because I would rather appreciate the beauty of what I possess now, even as friends it is also the most wonderful relationship to cherish.

Unless, fate arrives, when you and I are looking into each other at the right time, and we could leave our past without any doubt to start anew, I would definitely give my all for you, to be LOVING.

That's my Love for you, Victor.

I miss You so... because, I would never want to give up on understanding and accepting every aspect of you...

I would just want to embrace you, by being LOVING.

I have read this, or heard this or learnt this somewhere...

"Learning to be grateful is the most beautiful feeling that you could ever spread it to the people around you, and being Loving is all about accepting the strengths and weaknesses of one with LOVE in your heart.
Because when you feel LOVE; when you spread LOVE, the weaknesses could be regarded as beauty as well."

So, no matter how, no matter what,

My love for you always exists.

I would never give up bringing such warmth into your life, because you are the special someone in my life, who brings me warmth into my heart, giving me the courage to move on bravely with a loving heart.

I appreciate your existence so much, Victor.

I hope you would know this, someday, and feel the feeling of being loved.