Losing my Soul...

Thursday night, so upset.
Whole Friday, dying off...
Today, force myself to stay focus.
Because, I MUST.

Next week, 14th is my mid exam. These two days 2 of my friends came to my house and study together with me. I don't know how the exam result will be after next week... I feel like dying off now... Since Thursday night... OMG... What happened to me... I really don't know why... I lost my soul.

Thursday night I came back quite late, can said that I came back on Friday morning 1am. I slept for 3 hours only then woke up again, attend for class which started at 8am. 6.30am already I went to the train station.

Sigh... What am I doing... What is this I am feeling... How can I get over it... Why is it such a big impact on me...

Frustrated with me already is it? Fine...

How'd you know I didn't move on..?

Why you guys always like to judge me without observing the real me putting effort?

I'm disappointed.

Why should I blame them? Why should I blame you?

I just wanted to say : You left me, starting anew there... leaving me here. Funny...

Why should I say this sentence? I should not... I have no rights to say such thing...

No rights... Because I'm the one who leaves you at first.

My retribution... Cause I have leave you alone.

I don't deserve anyone to love me.

Never ever... Guys... Awake! I'm worthless for you guys.